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“Ensomhed” is the danish word for loneliness. Something every exchange student goes through. Something every living person goes through, no doubt. But, Danish loneliness is something different. Danish loneliness is sitting beneath a grey sky, dressed in all black, clutching a one dollar cup of coffee, and for that moment the comfort of holding something warm in you hands – that cup of coffee – is your best friend.
Danish loneliness is being a constant “outsider”. It’s being that person that everyone wants to practice their English on. It’s that state of mind where all of a sudden all those English class lessons about the archetypal outsider all make sense. For now, you are an archetype. Danish loneliness is being reduced to your basic and primal attributes. No longer are you that “smart kid” or the one who always dresses nice. Nobody knows who you are; you begin to question if you ever knew either.
Danish loneliness is knowing you left everyone behind. People who loved you. A girlfriend, a best friend, your parents, your friends… everyone. Danish loneliness is knowing some people may never forgive you for that, and knowing that some people couldn’t care less. Danish loneliness is trying to forgive myself for doing that to them. Danish loneliness is having new friends, but being unable to be friendly.
Danish loneliness prevents one from being excited for their return home. For Danish loneliness is knowing you’ll never have a home.